Blrugsmurgle…..No Sleep

Last night I got no sleep. It’s all such a haze though that I don’t really remember what was up with Eli….like if it was my fault for not burping him well enough, feeding him fully, or swaddling him. I just remember looking at the clock at 1:57am and thinking it seemed like it should be 6am because I’d been awake the whole night. It was at that point I decided to avoid keeping Shane awake and go out to the livingroom with Eli. He was just a fussy boy and I can’t remember why.

I’ve realized that if I don’t think about it before going to bed, I’ll forget to do all Eli’s feedings out of bed and if I don’t do that, everything is screwed up! It’s so hard to remember when I’m tired though and THAT is why I need to think about it before going to bed.

I was a complete zombie when Shane got up and felt sort of bad later when I realized I didn’t pack him a lunch, didn’t even give him a proper greeting but despite all of that my first cognitive realization was that he was setting a fresh cup of coffee in front of me. I have a keeper folks, no doubt about it.

After getting my dosage of coffee I made the ole banana/egg pancake for the day and topped it with a little smear of coconut oil and drizzle of honey.

Coconut oil melts immediately and so it made quite the smooth and silky topping combined with the honey.

After breakfast I still had a fussy baby on my hands and instead of trying to bounce him around or stick myself on the couch I plopped him in a sling.

He fell asleep immediately. Please ignore my no sleep under eye bags and lack of facial hygiene….sometimes other things are the priority.

With him asleep I was able to bake bread! Avery was my little ‘helper’ and while he made a mess on one side of the counter with different sized mason jars and dry quinoa (don’t know why, but he loves playing with it so I give him a little and he pours it from one jar to another and sometimes eats it haha), I made my typical sandwich bread loaf which I put in a loaf pan.

Not my prettiest loaf but it turned out very tasty.

Then there’s the plain ‘dinner’ bread loaf which is just a rounded loaf I use for things like pizza slices (slice of bread topped with sauce, pepperoni and cheese), garlic toast, etc.

And finally I always make some sort of cinnamon loaf. Sometimes I’ll do cinnamon, raisins, honey and butter inside, other times, like today, I’ll just heavily sprinkle cinnamon and drizzle some oil and organic sugar. I topped it with the same sugar for looks:)

Once the bread was all baked I decided to drop off lunch for Shane since I dropped the ball this morning. I sliced the bread, popped on some mustard, pepperoni, cheddar cheese (melted), onions and fresh tomatoes from my dad and wrapped it up. We made a quick stop at Aldi to pick up some stuff for the REAP food drive our church is doing and dropped it all off.

Avery went down when we got home and I tried to get some rest too after the sleepless night. Naturally, I didn’t sleep, but I got to look at this for a while and that was all I needed!

I also managed to get in my lunch salad.

This salad was comprised of a base of two homegrown tomatoes (from my massive stash) and topped it with onions, cheddar cheese, a grated carrot and some homemade balsamic vinaigrette.

I nursed Eli and cuddled some more and after Avery had been sleeping for a couple hours I heard his disturbing night terror cries and ran in to find him experiencing a ‘nap’ terror. I thought night terrors were scary…..nap terrors are SO much worse because I can see everything! After a few minutes of freaky movements, heart wrenching noises and a some well aimed accidental kicks, he finally came to. I can’t tell you enough how much I hate night and nap terrors. He only had night terrors during the week after he was bed trained and this nap terror sufficiently freaked me out and is making me fear they’ll keep happening:(

But after he was up he only wanted to snuggle and I LOVE snuggles.

Then I made cookies.

Baking is a postpartum nesting urge that is annoying me.  Cleaning is amazing and I love doing cleaning projects induced by nesting but baking leaves me with a messy kitchen and a huge amount of generally sugar laden carbs. I tried my best to make these healthy-ish. I didn’t photograph them but I’m sure they’ll turn up since there’s about a million of them. Argh. I literally just finished cleaning up that mess and the kitchen rarely falls into the nesting category.

No dinner tonight since Shane had an early City Hall Meeting and I just fed him and later, Avery. I always seem to end up without dinner when we don’t get to sit down together. I made up for it with cookies.

And so that was my day. Restful but actually kind of busy!

Question: What do you do when you have too many baked goods? Give them away? Eat them all?