Best Thing

Potentially worst night ever last night so don’t judge my lack of coherence in this post….I’m doing the best I can!

First thing I want to talk about is my life as a mom right now. I think I am showing just the one side these days….the side where I don’t get to sleep. Okay, yeah, that sucks a lot but there’s the other part of the equation and it makes up 90% of the whole.

Every day I get to spend with my boys. I have so many incredible moments, hours, days, weeks and months experience the most amazing things. Watching them develop, seeing them grow, being a part of shaping them as humans.

Today as I was getting Eli ready for bed Avery climbed up onto the changing table, looked into the mirror and suddenly started singing ‘Lalalal la la lalala!’ with hand movements and facial acting. This might not seem like too much of a big deal to other people but seeing my boy make that sound was new, hilarious, so apart from me but a part of me that it made me burst with joy and pride.

My phone’s touch screen wasn’t working this evening so I started to take the case and backing off to remove the battery and with each piece I removed Eli, on my lap, got more and more excited and by the end was laughing hysterically. What is funny about it? I don’t know. That sort of independent thought and reaction is exciting to me though and so cute too.

Avery tells Eli to ‘stooooppppp!’ while putting his hand out to Eli’s face, when he’s laughing at something Avery doesn’t think is funny.

They fight over Buzz and Woody.

Avery is learning to share.

Eli laughs more at Avery than anyone else.

Avery learned how to comfort Eli a few weeks ago and now does it on command if I’m busy in the kitchen.

Eli spends the entire bath sitting down and splashing. At that age Avery never splashed but only wanted to stand.

You see what I mean? So many glorious things happening daily. Sure, the nights might be giving me a long term addiction to caffeine and chocolate but hopefully they’ll be just a season. I just wanted to clear up that I do have a good life and I know it…..despite sleeplessness.

And now I have a little announcement. Due to unique and ongoing issues I am going back to being a full on vegetarian. Screw meat…that’s all it ever does to me.

I don’t really have much else to say except that I made dinner for Shane tonight before his City Council meeting and it turned out looking pretty.

Just a quick egg/cheese burrito browned in the skillet with avocado and hot sauce on top.

And now I’m off to attend my yet again crying baby…..maybe tonight won’t be different…but I’m going to hold on to hope.